I put this in "Off Topic", despite it maybe being more of a "Personal Story", because frankly, I want the discussion Googleable and open.
I've been doing some hard thinking lately, combined with a little research on the matter on why things are the way they are with regards to the role of men in society. I made a comment in this thread (hyper-linked), that I will quote here, that really got me to wondering... why this is?
The statement above resonated with me as being completely true and accurate, and frankly further galvanized my view that I, as a man, am expendable. If you google search "men are expendable", you get a fair amount of sympathy plights for the common man, memes that strike a blow back to the femnazis, etc. But if you look closely at the results, you occasionally see explanations as to why this is (why men are considered expendable)...moonshadow wrote:For ever since I've been old enough to follow social customs, one thing I learned pretty early on in life, and that is, due to my sex, my blood just isn't worth anything, and the only way I'll find acceptance is if I sit down, shut up, and know my place. My gender role is to provide, not be provided for, to care, not be cared for, to listen, not speak, to be hit, but not defend myself, and if I should be raped, my role is to like it and be counted lucky that I should have the gracious gift of sex with a woman and not have to pay for it.
Now you all know me, and you all know I'm all for men's rights, hell I I dare say I wouldn't even be an active member of SkirtCafe if not for my support of men's rights (in this case, to wear a skirt). However I like to think I'm a logical, practical, and thoughtful man, and when faced with a cruel logic, I'm forced to concede.
I learned why men are considered expendable, and you know what...? I'm forced to agree....
Modern men (and some women) will say that this no longer applies in the modern world, but I'm not sure this is so. I'll explain in a moment... but first, let me tell you what I learned in response to my inquiry about expendable men:
The consensus view is among experts is: That if you have a small tribe, simply put you can't afford to loose too many women. Women can only bear an average of one child every 10 months to a year (depending on how long it takes to re-conceive and recover from the last pregnancy) Whereas women can only bear one child (generally, not counting the occasional twins, etc), men on the other hand can impregnate multiple women, virtually constantly. I'm not sure exactly how long it takes for a man to build his sperm count back up after ejaculation, but I'd say thinking conservatively, it stands to reason that a man could probably impregnate hundreds of women in that same 10-12 month period.
Now this is just the way it is, the raw biology of our Nature, and under that reasoning, then yes, I can understand why it is men that are called off to war, and to do the dangerous jobs, because it would seem that for matters of survival of the species, men are indeed, expendable.... And buddy if that don't make ya feel worthless...
Modern folk say this isn't the case anymore, well over 7 billion people strong, I think it's safe to say the species is not going anywhere... But take a trip to the old side of any older cemetery, and you'll notice something striking... Child and infant mortality rates were VERY high just a hundred years ago! If a woman living then bore a child every year, I'd say the odds are good that many won't live long enough to carry on the line, male or female. Suddenly the reason for steady procreation in those days makes sense to me. Yes, it would seem that having infants survive into adulthood most of the time, is somewhat of a new and modern thing! I suppose it's thanks to modern medicine, technology, and other social issues. Still yet, in developing parts of the world I can imagine that these infants and children struggle to survive to adulthood, and is it any coincidence, that in those parts of the world, the cultures tend to protect their women fiercely?
Still yet, though in western culture, our species may seem like it's going strong, but this isn't really the case. An ugly Solar flare, Natural disaster, or man-made disaster like a Nuclear world war three can easily decrease the human populations by billions in a short amount of time. Even nations like the U.S., should they desire to remain viable can have our population cut down to rates not seen since the 18th century. Under those circumstances, I can see American women suddenly becoming A LOT more valuable!
I think this is why women tend to select strong and masculine type of men to mate with. Granted, in the modern world, there may indeed be someone for everyone, even the weak and meek among us men can probably find a partner somewhere... but even so, Natural Selection isn't something you breed out in just a hundred years time. Perhaps it's not a woman being a "bimbo", or "trailer trash", perhaps it's more psychological than that. Perhaps these women don't even realize why they are drawn to big buff brawny type of men, and repelled by many of us who in their views, look and act more like they (the women) do.
And so, I come to this point. Feeling mighty depressed about this and in a bit of a funk if I do say so. Having to digest this isn't easy, and at the end of it all, I feel utterly worthless. Even if I was a macho-man, I'd still be nothing more than a glorified sperm bank. My small stature, somewhat "feminine" build, and my personality, make me not even that. As a man with few friends, a go nowhere job where I'm not respected, family I seldom hear from, and other matters, I find that my opinions only serve to get me in trouble, I'm silenced at every turn, never given a chance, lonely, and above all, I live in a society that openly has no value on my life, as is seen in our lacking men's health care, high incarceration rates, and of course, suicide. I've called my religion into question over this. I can understand the appeal of Christianity with it's "father like" deity, and yet deep down (and sorry to offend), but I just don't believe it. It seems logical to me, and I do honestly believe that if God exist, then she is a female. After all, why else would such a creator create our species and not have women be the most vital sex for procreation?? It infuriates me, and it makes me think that if this is true then why the hell am I even here? Just to die in wars and change tires? Is that my sole function? To serve? I contemplate how to break the chains.
It's almost comical, when you google suicide methods, the first thing you're greeted with is a "you matter", "you're important" and other such nonsense, and yet if I believed that then I wouldn't be sitting here googling it to begin with... I figured if you actually called it, once they find out you're a man, it would be like... "oh... I see. Well, here's some pills to make you feel better..."... yeah yeah... anything to get you back to work, fighting in wars, changing tires, etc.
Hell, I wouldn't even leave a damned note. Just another worthless piece of trash written by a worthless piece of trash.